bah

......why do i get suddenly depressed like this. fuck this. why does my mom not care? why do i do this?! FUCK i hate feeling sorry for myself, its bullshit. im not the only one with problems. no more goddam pot. fuck! fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK it seems the only time im happy is when im asleep. gawd no, i cant let this happen again. im so cold, i can barely see straight. help